LIES!!!!!!!!!!!

lies that hide within us can sometimes kill us..  i'm not talking about lies like pranks.. i'm talking the lies that connects to feelings. why do we lie? we lie to keep our precious secrets, we lie to protect the people we love, we lie to be considerate, we lie because we don't want anyone to worry! lying is sinful.. but we lie to everyone.. to our friends, our family, our lovers, and ourselves.. when its hard to accept something impossible we lie to ourselves. when we don't want to hurt our friends worry we say that were okay.. deep inside we're hurting like hell. we lie to our family so we don't hurt their feelings. we lie everyday.  our daily routine. we even live in lies. i hate lies but i have to lie because if i don't i seriously screwed.. that's why i live within the stupid lies.. i hate lying but i have to because i care for everyone i know.. and i sometimes lie to people or to you because i love you. but you lie just to cover your faults..  we live with lies.. and lie more to everyone.. i think that liars don't have a heart.. I DON'T HAVE A HEART!

       

L0vE !

At first i agreed with the concept of love.. But that was way behind. Now i realised the motive and the reason why love exist.. And now the meaning Love is a sensitive subject to talk about.. based on my experience i fell in love a few times in my teenage journey. But i got stuck so deeply in one relationship.. the relationship that i really wished that it could end. it wasn't officially a Relationship just a tense crush. But HE picked someone else over me. And i admit it was torturing and painful.. maybe it wasn't painful physically but inside my heart my soul was crushed.. the pain was more painful than being stabbed a million times in the HEART. i didn't know why i was stuck.. i was heart broken i was depressed and frustrated when he betrayed me but i  convinced my self to think positive and to be considerate throw my ego far-far away. And i thought about sacrifice in Love. So i sacrificed my love and i let HIM go and wishing they will be together for a long time. It was hard but i tried with determination and strength to keep going on.  Eventhough, the pain still lingers in me. i fought with maximum courage. But i failed every time. i thought i was about to win but i fell right on my feet. The part that hurts the most is seeing HIM everyday in school. but we we're friends.  But I am with someone else. since he has  someone to cheer him up why can't i. But My companion was away forever. we can't meet cause he is far-far away.. but i prayed everyday that he could be by my side every single day and make the sorrow disappear and cheer me up when i was in a bad mood and protect me from all the other violent boys in school. I really want to forget him and concentrate on my own companion. But day by day it was getting worse. i tried the alternate way to forget him that is by lying to me self and coping my self to hate him. but deeply inside i still had feelings for him. i am confused i didn't know what to do.. i didn't want to endanger my relationship. i have to do something but i don't know what.. that is why to me Love is painful.. and unforgettable