L0vE !

At first i agreed with the concept of love.. But that was way behind. Now i realised the motive and the reason why love exist.. And now the meaning Love is a sensitive subject to talk about.. based on my experience i fell in love a few times in my teenage journey. But i got stuck so deeply in one relationship.. the relationship that i really wished that it could end. it wasn't officially a Relationship just a tense crush. But HE picked someone else over me. And i admit it was torturing and painful.. maybe it wasn't painful physically but inside my heart my soul was crushed.. the pain was more painful than being stabbed a million times in the HEART. i didn't know why i was stuck.. i was heart broken i was depressed and frustrated when he betrayed me but i  convinced my self to think positive and to be considerate throw my ego far-far away. And i thought about sacrifice in Love. So i sacrificed my love and i let HIM go and wishing they will be together for a long time. It was hard but i tried with determination and strength to keep going on.  Eventhough, the pain still lingers in me. i fought with maximum courage. But i failed every time. i thought i was about to win but i fell right on my feet. The part that hurts the most is seeing HIM everyday in school. but we we're friends.  But I am with someone else. since he has  someone to cheer him up why can't i. But My companion was away forever. we can't meet cause he is far-far away.. but i prayed everyday that he could be by my side every single day and make the sorrow disappear and cheer me up when i was in a bad mood and protect me from all the other violent boys in school. I really want to forget him and concentrate on my own companion. But day by day it was getting worse. i tried the alternate way to forget him that is by lying to me self and coping my self to hate him. but deeply inside i still had feelings for him. i am confused i didn't know what to do.. i didn't want to endanger my relationship. i have to do something but i don't know what.. that is why to me Love is painful.. and unforgettable